C'est la vie

shitty arrival day

Scarlette — Thu, 27 Dec 2007 07:43:34 +0300

hey there me in bankok now its so fucking hot now. im frustrated for several reasons and basically its so fucking difficult to understand people's english. how much i miss canada! if same thing happens again and again i'd anyway lose my patience and get so pissed. i'd just admit that i do hate people who cannot speak english. and thai should be an ok trip if it were not for all thoese disputes sigh. looking forward to having fun, if any. miss ruosin. damn i gotta get back to north america. i NEED to.

btw their campus's cool, so fucking cool actually. now i understand why those chinese people come here to study.

havnt even got in touch with nicole yet.

哥哥

Scarlette — Wed, 26 Dec 2007 11:51:45 +0300

听到了哥哥的声音，无比开心，

只有哥哥好，还是哥哥好，哥哥最好

我就是喜欢我哥，我要去投奔他！

我兴奋地发现，我哥奇像佟大为无比，哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。

绝望

Scarlette — Sat, 03 Nov 2007 13:19:23 +0400

有一天在我俩都特绝望的时候高雅说了一句我就是这样热爱绝望

我说这话听着怎么那么春树啊高雅说那就是春树说的

于是我就觉得我特牛B了我就得瑟了。

高雅

Scarlette — Tue, 23 Oct 2007 14:27:53 +0400

要说什么来着？

高雅这厮身上总是有一种随时抽身而退的气质。学习学习。

scarlette was like WHAT the f***?

Scarlette — Sun, 21 Oct 2007 14:44:26 +0400

非常奇怪的是，我感到我的同房在这个夜晚一反常态地脾气异常暴躁，暴躁到了我感到害怕的程度，她对于我发出的每一个噪音都给与异常暴躁的回应，甚至开始乱扔床上的东西。而可怕的是在于，她不对我说那是问题，而是在电话里向他人疯狂的抱怨。我甚至一直没有反应过来我开着的静音的电脑的机器运行声，屏幕的光，以及大概我呼吸的声音那就是全部的她无可仍受的对象。打个电话给男朋友，第一句就劈头盖脸地大呼小叫我睡不着！继而我必须以这样一种从她对话内容的方式才能被告知的方式逐渐醒悟原来关灯静音甚至不在打字的我原来就是她恨死的对象。她就一路这样怒吼抱怨，我就一路心惊胆战。或者说，我一路由理直气壮认为自己无比无辜到逐渐醒悟原来这样也有罪最后小心翼翼地连气都忘了呼。这样一个男的就一路安慰她给她想各种办法，其中似乎就包括“你让她也停止工作现在睡觉呗”。他的宝贝一路在电话拼命抱怨撒娇，他得哄她睡觉，这样一个随叫随到的男人我后来突然就开始担心他会不会上来暴力制止我开着电脑呢。一想那是有可能的呀！3、4点钟-在我睡觉的时候-他进来哄她这种事也不是没发生过啊。于是我着实心惊胆战了，只好拔了电源拔了网线出去坐着。不幸的是，尽管我无比小心，黑暗中我出房间的路上大概还是撞到了几千个垃圾桶之类的东西，于是她果真对每一声声响都在电话上抱以又一次地呻吟 – in a rude way actually.

说实话，我实在以为她是醉了。只见过一次，一个女孩醉后一反常态尖叫胡说。我姑且以为你是吧。无论怎样，其实也是过分了点。人似乎从来不think things the other way round, I was totally shocked tonight for what I was doing can be almost awarded as considerate while the normal practice of her is like having everything on and typing or even having the boyfriend in at like 3 or 4 when tanya and I am sleeping. Tanya got much pissed and says fuck her lets go in. 不过我还是夹起电脑，坐在了在寒风中继续研究我的康德哲学。

如果我每天晚上睡不着都给男朋友打这样一个电话怒吼撒娇，他一定得烦死。

在studio耗着的夜晚

Scarlette — Wed, 17 Oct 2007 13:26:40 +0400

跟lily粘了一晚上spaghetti.

累

freakin out

Scarlette — Tue, 16 Oct 2007 04:18:16 +0400

想得起来的，最近发生了两件事。我承认它们的接踵而至让我感到沮丧。它们又让我开始真切地意识到并开始担心我与人交往的能力。我忧虑我已经没有办法和人正常接触下去，虽然它们看上去只是一种表面上的临时暴戾与失败，i can always go like, i got so pissed because of these jerks they waste my life i dont even wanna look at them and talk to them; or, i can go in time i really do got disappointed by the newasia thing, like WhateverTF NAYale don't want me, fine, i'll letya see yale wants me.

But these are just temporary complaints easing the temper, deep down i realize these are serious problems, of philosophical significance that effects my existence. Concerns how im gonna keep on with living and really decide how im gonna deal with people.

im freakign out frekaing out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out freaking out!
- 思念是一种病！

一个人回家

Scarlette — Fri, 12 Oct 2007 14:38:34 +0400

坚持要一个人晚上从西贡回来 - 令我想起了澳门。

并非雨夜，并非思量。

那海是很美，甚至惊人。可以真正面朝大海地奔跑，向着太阳奔跑。虽然我觉得在黄昏时分它看上去已经有一种令我害怕的气质，我感到我若一直看着它它一定会在某一天引诱我走向它走向远方。

图书馆是好地方。我在想。

我在想他。

这就是这个地方。twisted asshole.

felt so good to actually get out and get away from all this. sky suddenly grew bigger, bus's flying through. i see, i remember, i sing.

Also so nice to finally be able to actually have CONVERSATIONs. someone that can have nice talk with. Nice people.

回来的夜晚遇见了LEAH. 去之前遇见CHARI. Nice people.

Or why are they so perfect actually?

看了一集SEINFELD，配合着突然响起的几首经典老歌的旋律，i love u more than i can say, 变得很难过。

某些事情。瞬间崩溃，瞬间软弱。

房里的女孩正在絮絮地和男朋友哭泣吵架。男孩是永远不会懂，那是一个女孩的等待...

WHY R GUYS ALWAYS SUCH A JERK??

Scarlette — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 13:52:02 +0400

the moment我瘫进黑暗中阳台上的沙发中，仿佛白天的一切窒息又有了氧气

黑暗中世界都又变美好了 fcuk it why care?

I'm having dutch food, dutch beer,

where is my dutch guy?

在晚上世界又变美好了，我在人们的羡慕中只沉默一笑饮尽heineken

幻觉中沉迷起舞

只是不知道我该怎么说、对谁说、说什么

青春是一种病

Scarlette — Fri, 05 Oct 2007 06:35:25 +0400

看一本有关青春的电影杂志。

。
青春。

此情可待成追忆，只是当时已惘然。

想回中国做杂志了。

太阳照常升起。